Tuesday, February 25, 2014

An Unforeseeable Feast



“Cass!” Scottie’s voice snapped me out scripture. Scottie, my baby brother, found me inside my new hiding place.  
I only wanted to settle myself in somewhere amidst this maze of a hotel spa. I was seeking to use this slice of solo-time inside this family vacation to do what I honestly wished I could do with them- commune with God and read His Word.
I spotted the hot tub at the end of the hallway, but I was gently pulled into another room. My eyes landed on the door label.

CONTEMPLATION ROOM

A room set aside just for time inside my mind? Sounded kind of dreadful… but the Father used the couch in view, comfortably calling me to prayer. So I ditched the hot tub route, curled into the couch and pulled out my Bible.
But, my baby brother was just around the corner.
“You didn’t get any coffee!? Look at all this!” he said, making himself at home, helping himself to the coffee bar I was sure wasn't for me. Well, whether it was for us or not- it was there and no one was around, which meant Scott was all over it.
“Oh! Let me make it for you!” he said. He stirred up a carefully selected proportion of creamer, sweetener and some kind of latte cappuccinoness.
“Ya readin’ again?” he asked as he handed me the cup of cavities.
“Yup!” I paused, contemplating my next question. I couldn’t help myself. “Wanna read something with me?” I tried to ask casually, supposing it was worth a cappuccino-shot.
“Eh, sure,” he said, in his indifferent, whatever way.
He was all whatever and underwhelmed; I was altogether overwhelmed.
Did this moment really just slide into my lap? Getting to sit one-on-one and open the Word of God with my little brother…. Certainly I was dreaming, still sleeping on the massage bed. Or maybe I wasn’t dreaming, just contemplating? Whatever- if it was a dream, I was staying in it as long as possible. With my baby brother sitting next to me, I didn’t bother to pinch myself; but I did keep my joy exposure at a minimum.
Okay. Something simple, Cassie… don’t overwhelm him.
Got it- Psalms.  
“Alright- Psalm 1, ya ready?”
“Go for it!” he said, scooting in a little closer to me on the contemplation couch.
I read aloud.

Blessed is the one
    who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
    or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,
    and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
    which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
    whatever they do prospers.”

I allowed a stop. We said nothing. I tried to fill the silence, while knowing that he was probably both half-listening and lost.
“So, it’s making a comparison here,” I explained, “between a man and a tree. So, when we have a relationship with God, He starts to grow fruit in our lives,” I said and reread my spoken words. Fruit in our lives? I realized that probably sounded completely ridiculous to him.
As if God’s Spirit Himself threw me a personal paper airplane, a section of scripture explaining the fruits of the Spirit of God flew into my mind to the rescue. I knew then this would help him understand. I flipped frantically to Galatians, attempting to make the most out of every second I could share with him these secrets to life.
I read aloud.
“22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,23 gentleness and self-control…Galatians 5:22-23
I allowed a stop; then asked, “Are there any of these fruits you feel like you need more than others?”
His face of contemplation was so pleasing to me.
“Peace and Self-control,” he said.
“I gotcha… I definitely need those too…” I said, humbled by the truth inside those words. 
Before he could get up to fill his cup with cappuccinoness; I filled the silence with a bit of silliness.
“But isn’t that cool!? Fruit is so delicious! Like… if we were to actually taste love, joy, peace… they would taste better than fruit!”
Just a millisecond after the word “fruit” fell from my mouth, our attention was stolen by a woman standing in the doorway. She was balancing a giant oval platter on her hand: a smorgasbord of fresh fruit. The centerpiece was a chiseled pineapple tower, vines intertwined with vines of grapes, carefully cut cubes stacked on cubes of cantaloupes, pineapples and honeydews, and strawberries cuddled into one another, creating for themselves a perfect bed. The freshest feast of fruit was just catered straight to us.
“Looks like this is just for the two of you!” she said as she laid the weighty tray before us, beaming with natural brightness.
“Enjoy!” she chirped cheerfully, as if she had just excitedly executed her one liner in a play, and nonchalantly walked off stage as she walked out the door.
With my Bible lying on my lap, flopped open to the highlighted fruits of the Spirit, we both stared at the platter. He turned to me, and I was face to face with a specific smile across his lips and a new glow in his eyes. It was the spitting image of the child in him, the one I could only catch a glimpse of when I pulled out our old photo albums. This sweet smile was like a spritz of cool mist straight on my face in the scorching heat of a desert. He just witnessed a mini-miracle; but just then, I witnessed two.
“Woah,” he said, “that was cool.”
And like two giddy kids, we giggled and feasted on the fruit before us.


Sunday, February 23, 2014

True Fruit



Okay- first of all, 
how lame is fake fruit?

Yet I remember always being quite fascinated by it when I was a kid. My Mom and Dad would drag Mike (big brother), Scott (baby brother) and me (middle sister) to the furniture store, and the most fun we could suck out of that trip was playing with the fake fruit that sat so tactfully in glass bowls on top of coffee tables or kitchen counters.
Despite the glares of irritation burning from the salespeople, Mike, Scott and I would poke and play with the squishy grapes, shiny apples and textured oranges.
This was a regular occurrence; 
fake fruit never seemed to get old.
Pun intended.

However,
apparently, for me, in many ways, 
fake fruit still hasn't gotten old.
I'm finding that I am still quite fascinated with fake fruit.

But let's rewind. 

Before the Spring semester of my sophomore year at TCU wrapped up,
God let me take a sneak peek at a verse that would become one of the personal theme verses for my upcoming summer.
And, with every day that has passed during this summer break,
it has become clearer and clearer to me just how well He knows me.
It has also become very clear that He knew just what was on the lesson plan for the summer,
before I even entered the classroom.

"I am the vine and you are the branches.
If a man remains in me, and I in him,
he will bear much fruit;
apart from me he can do nothing,"
John 15:5

Without Christ, we simply don't have it in us.
Without His Spirit as my gardener, I am only bearing forcing fake fruit.
I am not bearing any fruit. In fact, I’m just forcing the production of plastic, fake fruit.

Now, my point is not to beat up on myself and resolve that I am a "fake" person.
Nor is it to "give up on myself" in a defeated kind of way.
But instead, I am finding that many of us may need to give God the victory in our lives.
We cannot attain the righteousness of Christ,
and it is only through His Spirit, 
bearing a bountiful harvest within us,
that true fruit can be produced.

True fruit?
Y'all know the verse...
"But the fruit of the Self is
love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness 
gentleness and self-control."
Wait. I don't know that version,
do you?
(If yes, please feel free to toss it)

Last time I checked, Galatians 5:22 read:
"But the fruit of the SPIRIT is
love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, fatihfulness 
gentleness and self-control."

It is not our job to keep trying and trying until we can cross off each fruit like they’re on some kind of spiritual grocery list. Our job, actually, is to give up what we think is our job, and give it to the bearer of all fruit:
The Holy Spirit.

This verse puts it much more bluntly:
"Are you foolish?
After beginning with the Spirit,
are you now trying to attain your goal
by human effort?"
Galatians 3:3

When I really read this verse,
it has self written all over it.
Another read:

"Are you foolish?
After beginning with the Spirit,
are you now trying to attain your goal
by your effort?"

So, every day, we have a decision to make.
We can, for all our life, produce this fake fruit that is only good for decoration and child's play,
or we could give up on our selves, so to speak,
surrender to the Holy Spirit's work,
and bear fruit that gives glory to God,
not our own striving "Christian" self.

Self-Directed-Life

Holy-Spirit-Directed-Life

Dear Lord, 
You know how I am wired. Most times, when faced with just about anything, it is my instinct to try as hard as I can to get the best result. But, you say that apart from you I can do nothing. I don't want fake fruit. I want the fruit that comes solely from your Spirit, so that You may gain all the glory in my life. Help me to yield my heart, mind and soul to your divine gardening. Teach me to give up on my self, and give in to You. I throw all of the fake fruit away that I have been so fascinated with farming and I welcome Your Spirit into the harvest you will surely complete. 
I love you! 
In Your Name, 
Amen. 

"...The Spirit is willing, 
but the body is weak."
Matthew 26:41